It's been over two months since I last made an entry. I actually promised myself that I would make at least a post in every month. Once a week is too much for me ^_^ Laziness probably? Or maybe just the inferiority complex of not being a good writer at all :P As if someone would bother reading this right?
Anywho here are just some random thoughts that are going into my head:
1) I can't say no to people.
I can't remember as to when I actually said yes or no when I really wanted to say yes or no. Lately as much as I wanted to say no or yes, I always end up saying what they expect me to say (and that's usually a yes). And after that I'd end up regretting saying yes because it wasn't what I wanted to really say at all. Take for example, my officemate's wedding, at that time she gave an invitation I said yes. At the back of my mind though I thought I wouldn't that be comfortable at the wedding at all. Why? well there would be people from office too but I do not really talk to them that much and basically I'd be in a dress which at the moment wasn't fond of wearing. By the time the weekend of the wedding came, I ended up making some lame excuse as to why I couldn't not to go.
2) I think I really need a long vacation, like a month or so before going back to the workforce.
I need a break. I just want to stop pretending and just be my lazy self who likes to take a lot of pictures of different places. If only I had a lot of money to spend right? Or maybe I just need be myself again and think of what I really need and want to do. But doing something I want isn't a luxury that I have right now. Well for one thing, my mom's always breathing down my neck as to why I haven't started applying at BSP (like it's that easy to get in there *sigh*). Maybe I could talk to my dad about taking a break, maybe then I could collect my thoughts and be my old workaholic self again.
3) On a lighter note, I've started to appreciate Jpop music despite the language barrier.
I've been listening to Jpop music since the end of January. It was all due to an office mate of mine who was into Jdoramas. Eventually, I became addicted to the music of a edgy Jpop/Jrock band. And being the rock-ish person I actually liked the melody of the songs. And I ended up researching the meaning of the lyrics and liked them even more. And now I ended up being a fan (girl? *cough*) of the drummer of the band. Of course there are other artists that I like too like Flumpool, Do As Infinity and some L'Arc En Ciel. Maybe I'll try Mr. Children next time. And this has made me trying to save up for a trip to Japan next year.
4) I'm taking up photography lessons to express the artist in me.
Since I bought an DSLR last December '08 I've been itching to attend that photography workshop that came with the camera. And so far so good. I'm actually liking the class and I'm learning a lot with it. Well, except for that certain guy that I'm starting to get irritated with. Why? well because he's becoming an obnoxious artsy person that just wants to makes photographs that will win contests, so eventually he'd become a pro. I'm sorry but I just want to say to him that not everybody in the class wants to become a pro like he does. So he should just shut up. I mean I am serious about photography, but I'm not really gonna make it my life. Does he even stop and appreciate the pictures taken by his groupmates? To each his own I guess. I don't really like taking pictures with him. Two more saturday's then.
5) I'm slowly re-discovering myself again.
It seems that when I thought I knew myself well enough, I do something that makes me rethink everything again. Before I really thought that I would like to work in a corporate setting, I mean since I was studying biology I didn't want to wear scrubs at all. I imagined myself working in a cubicle, doing stuff like accounting. But then after I graduated and got into the workforce, I enjoyed it for a while. And then I ended up thinking that the corporate world was fake. And during my free time I wanted to try cooking and baking stuff. I really enjoyed it. And other people enjoyed the food I cooked too. And then there's photography, I do enjoy taking still life pictures. Although portraits are cool too but I think that I'd better stick to the more cooperative subjects (ones that don't move). So that got me thinking if I should delve more into food photography? Or just put up my own resto, though that would be quite expensive and cash is something that I don't have.
6) I miss some of my friends.
It seems that some of them, well I guess we're not on the same level anymore. But I guess some people just move on from their lives. It's ok I guess, at least I still have the important ones with me :), and that's all that matters. Though I'm not really sure why they put up with me :P
Anywho here are just some random thoughts that are going into my head:
1) I can't say no to people.
I can't remember as to when I actually said yes or no when I really wanted to say yes or no. Lately as much as I wanted to say no or yes, I always end up saying what they expect me to say (and that's usually a yes). And after that I'd end up regretting saying yes because it wasn't what I wanted to really say at all. Take for example, my officemate's wedding, at that time she gave an invitation I said yes. At the back of my mind though I thought I wouldn't that be comfortable at the wedding at all. Why? well there would be people from office too but I do not really talk to them that much and basically I'd be in a dress which at the moment wasn't fond of wearing. By the time the weekend of the wedding came, I ended up making some lame excuse as to why I couldn't not to go.
2) I think I really need a long vacation, like a month or so before going back to the workforce.
I need a break. I just want to stop pretending and just be my lazy self who likes to take a lot of pictures of different places. If only I had a lot of money to spend right? Or maybe I just need be myself again and think of what I really need and want to do. But doing something I want isn't a luxury that I have right now. Well for one thing, my mom's always breathing down my neck as to why I haven't started applying at BSP (like it's that easy to get in there *sigh*). Maybe I could talk to my dad about taking a break, maybe then I could collect my thoughts and be my old workaholic self again.
3) On a lighter note, I've started to appreciate Jpop music despite the language barrier.
I've been listening to Jpop music since the end of January. It was all due to an office mate of mine who was into Jdoramas. Eventually, I became addicted to the music of a edgy Jpop/Jrock band. And being the rock-ish person I actually liked the melody of the songs. And I ended up researching the meaning of the lyrics and liked them even more. And now I ended up being a fan (girl? *cough*) of the drummer of the band. Of course there are other artists that I like too like Flumpool, Do As Infinity and some L'Arc En Ciel. Maybe I'll try Mr. Children next time. And this has made me trying to save up for a trip to Japan next year.
4) I'm taking up photography lessons to express the artist in me.
Since I bought an DSLR last December '08 I've been itching to attend that photography workshop that came with the camera. And so far so good. I'm actually liking the class and I'm learning a lot with it. Well, except for that certain guy that I'm starting to get irritated with. Why? well because he's becoming an obnoxious artsy person that just wants to makes photographs that will win contests, so eventually he'd become a pro. I'm sorry but I just want to say to him that not everybody in the class wants to become a pro like he does. So he should just shut up. I mean I am serious about photography, but I'm not really gonna make it my life. Does he even stop and appreciate the pictures taken by his groupmates? To each his own I guess. I don't really like taking pictures with him. Two more saturday's then.
5) I'm slowly re-discovering myself again.
It seems that when I thought I knew myself well enough, I do something that makes me rethink everything again. Before I really thought that I would like to work in a corporate setting, I mean since I was studying biology I didn't want to wear scrubs at all. I imagined myself working in a cubicle, doing stuff like accounting. But then after I graduated and got into the workforce, I enjoyed it for a while. And then I ended up thinking that the corporate world was fake. And during my free time I wanted to try cooking and baking stuff. I really enjoyed it. And other people enjoyed the food I cooked too. And then there's photography, I do enjoy taking still life pictures. Although portraits are cool too but I think that I'd better stick to the more cooperative subjects (ones that don't move). So that got me thinking if I should delve more into food photography? Or just put up my own resto, though that would be quite expensive and cash is something that I don't have.
6) I miss some of my friends.
It seems that some of them, well I guess we're not on the same level anymore. But I guess some people just move on from their lives. It's ok I guess, at least I still have the important ones with me :), and that's all that matters. Though I'm not really sure why they put up with me :P
