18.7.08

Let's Sit and talk a while...

Since I have been primarily complaining about my job to my peers, and how there is no actually division of labor. Oh wait! Let me correct myself there is some division of labor... that's 90% for me and 10% for her. Anywho, I have decided to talk to my supervisor with regards to the dissatisfaction that I am feeling with my job. I told her that I am getting tired of it all and that I am keeping my options open. I wanted a day job and something less stressful. I told her all my angsts with regards to my direct superior, to my peers, my workload and salary (siyempre!). I didn't want to cry but lately it seems that nagiging iyakin na naman ako. *sigh* I did mentioned that I already opened my resume in Jobstreet pero sa totoo I've been applying around na.

I have been sending out resumes to different companies. There was one in Columbia tower in Ortigas. I was finished with the exam and was quietly passing time. And so I heard her superior (HR manager) talking to the person who interviewed me. Maybe they were thinking that I was still busy with my exam, so I eavesdropped. Sabi ng superior nya, "I think you made a mistake in getting this girl. I mean wala pa siyang one year in the company and umaalis na siya. And ano bang ginagawa nya dun?". When I heard those words it was a wake up call for me. As in, I left the interview and I decided not to work for that company any longer. How judgemental di ba? Pero I guess that's how it is in our corporate society. Also siguro sabi na rin ni God, that I stop looking for options muna. Try to finish what I've started, and not run away or hide away like I always do.

I have to admit, I'm the type of person that gets affected if someone else doesn't perform well. Because I care about my team and I want them to care about their job. But apparently there are some people that just get the job kasi it builds up their resume. At first I was guilty of that kasi I was thinking that I'll be getting more once I leave the company. Pero eventually I liked the people I worked with, and I decided to wait na rin. Pero it's the frustration of it all that's getting to me honestly that's why I want to get away.

I mean in a very ideal world, hindi ba mas maganda na magtrabaho ka where you actually enjoy the work? But why is it that there are still people that think of themselves. Nakakainis lang. And honestly I see that in my boss and it reflects. Biro mo they'll be applying again at the job portal ever so often. Stepping stone lang pala. Or maybe I'm just being naive about the whole thing. Ako lang pala ang nag iisip ng ganito and the rest just wants to get a job just for the sake of getting a job. Kaya nga siguro "ideal" lang siya.

Iba na naman ba topic? I guess ganyan ka-disorganized utak ko ngayon... Maybe I should just stop thinking and just do... tas tignan na lang natin result.

6.7.08

One Month after... Me thinks a change is at hand!

Couldn't believe it's already a month after my post. *blink blink* I guess since I got promoted, I had little time to myself, even little time to post in my blog. I'm not going to rant about my job anymore, becase the more I rant the more I'm going to be negative about it.

Anywho, on to the updates of my life... nothing significant has happened to my life. It's just an endless cycle of work-home-work-home every single day. I have no social life. My only social life is work, and it doesn't really count. And I've been thinking of getting a normal day job. Here are my pro's and con's about it:

PRO's:
1)I will have a social life as in get to talk to my friends. (hehe talgang top priority eh)
2)I will have normal sleeping hours.
3)I won't get to use my car much because I'll be commuting (safe hours pa yun).
4)As an after effect, I won't get to use a lot of money on gas and parking hence I could save money.
5)New environment. New chances.

CON's:
1)No leave credits. Start from scratch.
2)New interaction with people at new job. (not sure if there will be good chemistry)
3)Probably a lower salary or just the same.
4)Overall, just getting back to zero.
5)Loss of chance to go overseas to be trained (haha pangarap ko lang yan pero malabong mangyari sa office dahil sa intsik manager namin)

If there's anything you can add to my list, I'd gladly appreciate it.

But I did try on applying to AIM as a Finance associate. Kaya lang, I withdrew my application. Ewan ko ba, it just didn't feel right, tsaka tinamaan ako ng katamaran. More on the latter than the former, because honestly I'd rather stay home and sleep/relax than go to an interview at 830 in the morning. *sigh*

I feel I should stay at the office, at the minimum till September. But it's getting hard for me to pull it all together though (as in depress-depressan ang lola mo). Not sure if it's the pressure or talgang pagod na ako. My job is sucking the life out of me. I really think it's time for a change kaya lang iniisip ko ang mga magiging could've beens if I leave na. *sigh*