So here's the story of how I have finally found my real closure.
Being a person who is innately curious (and apparently had nothing to do with her spare time), I couldn't help but look at his myspace profile yet again. And there I saw an I love you message from a girl who was in the same area as he was at the same time I sent my email to him. I was literally dumbfounded, and then called up Kuya and then I felt so happy for myself.
As per my previous post, I have obviously told everybody including myself that I am over him. Well, yes to a certain point. Of course there's that "thing" that still lingers. I couldn't call it love nor would I call it anger or any other emotion that would register whenever there are issues in the matters of the heart. But I guess the closest would be guilt? I mean what if he didn't and he's waiting, blah blah blah. That kind of stuff that you usually feel during the post break up phase. But this feeling was on an extended phase, like two years extended *tsk tsk* for me right?
So my main point? I lingered too long. Apparently I was easily replaced. And the funny thing is, I feel dumb and happy at the same time. Is there such an emotion? I guess because I'm feeling that emotion right now. I feel dumb because I obviously was the only one who was holding on, when I was already replaced by someone else, easily might I add. But I'm also happy, because now I really can move on. It didn't hurt as I expected it to be. Like the times where he'd be gone for months and I'd be worried and all that. It's like a burden was lifted off my chest.
And honestly, I couldn't care less if he answered my email or not. ^_^ So here's to you! Thanks! and I'm not being sarcastic about it. I'm not mad, just simply happy now. Because I know I'm able to find someone better now.
Being a person who is innately curious (and apparently had nothing to do with her spare time), I couldn't help but look at his myspace profile yet again. And there I saw an I love you message from a girl who was in the same area as he was at the same time I sent my email to him. I was literally dumbfounded, and then called up Kuya and then I felt so happy for myself.
As per my previous post, I have obviously told everybody including myself that I am over him. Well, yes to a certain point. Of course there's that "thing" that still lingers. I couldn't call it love nor would I call it anger or any other emotion that would register whenever there are issues in the matters of the heart. But I guess the closest would be guilt? I mean what if he didn't and he's waiting, blah blah blah. That kind of stuff that you usually feel during the post break up phase. But this feeling was on an extended phase, like two years extended *tsk tsk* for me right?
So my main point? I lingered too long. Apparently I was easily replaced. And the funny thing is, I feel dumb and happy at the same time. Is there such an emotion? I guess because I'm feeling that emotion right now. I feel dumb because I obviously was the only one who was holding on, when I was already replaced by someone else, easily might I add. But I'm also happy, because now I really can move on. It didn't hurt as I expected it to be. Like the times where he'd be gone for months and I'd be worried and all that. It's like a burden was lifted off my chest.
And honestly, I couldn't care less if he answered my email or not. ^_^ So here's to you! Thanks! and I'm not being sarcastic about it. I'm not mad, just simply happy now. Because I know I'm able to find someone better now.
2 comments:
Closure is good, yes? Hehehe...I'm genuinely happy for you.
Next! :)
yes! it feels good! :) a bit delayed but it is good! :P
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