On November 26th, when I got home from work, I got online in my Dad's laptop and started surfing away. Of course, there's looking for songs to add in my Imeem playlist, reading up on my emails, friendster (a staple for some people). And yet for some unknown reason, I couldn't help but search my ex's profile in MySpace.com. I know I shouldn't have but maybe at the back of my mind I wanted to see how he is. Is he still alive? well the primary question is, has he moved on? or is he also like me that's still trying to move on despite two years of not talking.
And I ended up finding his profile since his profile was on the first pages of the search (what did expect right?). My first reaction was shock as in literally I said "OMG! it is him!". He looked ok, well I'm not going to lie, he looked absolutely happy. Ok looks like he has moved on with his life. So what am I going to do next?
And so for the next days, it was a never-ending battle of emailing him or not. A lot of my friends told me it was not worth it, since he clearly didn't want to do anything with me. Two years is a long time, I have to admit that fact. And if he wanted to re-establish our friendship, he would have contacted me in the first place when he got the chance to go online. My bestfriend even saw him online in YM, she said "hi" and never got a reply. So I think the finality of it was there.
But being the stubborn me, I decided to drop him a mail. Despite the warnings of all of them (my friends know me all too well when it comes to this guy), I sent a friendly email. And honestly, he hasn't replied (what did I expect?). So I think this is my closure. I did make that last effort to resuscitate something even the friendship. But we both know that friendship wouldn't actually do (who am I kidding right?). So this is for the best. And now I can say that I can move on.
btw, am listening to little bit's "Forget About Me" on loop.
And I ended up finding his profile since his profile was on the first pages of the search (what did expect right?). My first reaction was shock as in literally I said "OMG! it is him!". He looked ok, well I'm not going to lie, he looked absolutely happy. Ok looks like he has moved on with his life. So what am I going to do next?
And so for the next days, it was a never-ending battle of emailing him or not. A lot of my friends told me it was not worth it, since he clearly didn't want to do anything with me. Two years is a long time, I have to admit that fact. And if he wanted to re-establish our friendship, he would have contacted me in the first place when he got the chance to go online. My bestfriend even saw him online in YM, she said "hi" and never got a reply. So I think the finality of it was there.
But being the stubborn me, I decided to drop him a mail. Despite the warnings of all of them (my friends know me all too well when it comes to this guy), I sent a friendly email. And honestly, he hasn't replied (what did I expect?). So I think this is my closure. I did make that last effort to resuscitate something even the friendship. But we both know that friendship wouldn't actually do (who am I kidding right?). So this is for the best. And now I can say that I can move on.
btw, am listening to little bit's "Forget About Me" on loop.
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